My favorite part about being in the military is knowing that my significant other is almost certainly cheating on me while I am thousands of miles away, helpless, exhausted, and lonely. The seemingly limitless sadness and dread that I feel at all times because of this knowledge is a sort of atonement for the lives that I have taken.
❝ I had learned early to assume something dark and lethal hidden at the heart of anything I loved. When I couldn’t find it, I responded, bewildered and wary, in the only way I knew how: by planting it there myself. ❞
PAUL MARCUS FUOG